Dear Readers:

It has come to my attention that I owe my family an apology.  I write this post in embarrassment, expecting some pretty harsh comments, which are warranted.

As citizens of the United States, we enjoy the freedom of free speech.  Of course, free speech does not come without consequences.  As an anonymous blogger, for the most part (save my friends and family who know who I am), the identity of those about whom I write are also anonymous.

It is only recently that I found out that certain individuals of my family, with whom I have very poor relations from time to time, actually read my blog.  First, they are not technically inclined, or so I thought.  Second, I do not have good relations with them more often than not.  Therefore, I made the assumption that not only did they know where my blog was, but they were not interested in the least should they have known by some unusual circumstance.

Unfortunately, I found out that my assumptions were completely erroneous.  Because of this, I owe each and every one of them an apology.

I specifically owe my mother an apology.  Although my writings are about my frustrations in real life, it hurt her that I talked about them here on the blog.  It doesn’t matter that you do not know who she is.  She knows I am talking about her.  I was unaware that she reads my blog.  Although many of us use our blogs as a venting venue, I at least should have discussed my frustrations with her face-to-face so that she was aware of those frustrations.

Many times, I find her behavior funny.  And sometimes, she does as well.  But my writing tone is a bit bizarre, and only those who know me well understand that.  It is no excuse, however, to tell those stories without her express permission.  And for that, I apologize.

Even though the stories that I tell involve me, and I have a right to tell them due to free speech, there are indeed consequences.  And I suffered those consequences.  I at least owe her the right, on this blog, to apologize to her in this public forum where I hurt her.  It does not fix the fact that I hurt her in the actual postings.  But the only rectification I can make is an apology that addresses the actual incidents, and my desire to make amends.

I am of the belief that an apology is not sufficient.  I believe that making amends is the right way to “apologize” to someone.

Therefore, here is my attempt to make amends.

Mother, I am fully aware that I have hurt and angered you over the last few years regarding posts on my blog where you are a part of the content.  In order to rectify the same, today I removed every single blog entry that where you are associated.  I take full responsibility for the hurt I have caused you.  In the future, I will not engage in this behavior, as I know now that you read my blog, and I do not want to hurt or anger you any more.  I apologize for this behavior, and I fully lament the pain I have caused you.

As for other family members; I apologize for causing you grief regarding these entries.  No additional entries will occur regarding the same.  I fully accept responsibility.

On to other things.  I do want to address a couple of points.  I am moving to Mexico City (or near it) at the end of this month.  I am starting over, because I can’t do corporate America anymore.  I have re-evaluated my life, and I am at that moment in my life (around 38) where most people do the same.  I have dreams that I want to fulfill, and have realized that in order to fulfill those dreams, now is the time to take hold of my life and make it happen.  I could not do this without the assistance of my family; particularly my mother.

Thank you, mom, for your assistance in this endeavor.

There is one additional thing that I would like to address.  It has been stated to me that I have started over a number of times in my life.  Nothing could be further from the truth.  I have endeavored in corporate America for 15 years.  I have worked for several companies, and have lived in several states.  But I have always worked in technology, and have always maintained a corporate position and worked 80-100 hours a week.    There has been no starting over in my life until now.  I have made no major shifts in my life since I started working in technology.

Okay, that’s pretty much all I wanted to clarify, and all I want to say regarding my apologies and amends to my family.

Thank you for reading, and if you would like to leave comments, both harsh and normal, please do so.  I am open to anything.

Thank you.