Wave machine/sound machine…get one next time you are out. They do wonders for my panic attacks, seriously. I turn the world off, close the computer and just listen to the noises while doing my breathing exercises and such.
As an asthmatic I know how horrid it is when you can’t breathe. Hilly’s right though, Xanax works wonders on panic attacks. My best friend can’t live without it. He stockpiles it in case Red Dawn ever happens.
I want to thank everyone for their concern. I apologize for not getting back to everyone yesterday.
The panic attack was the longest I have ever had in my life. I have only had three.
as for Xanax, yes, that is what I take, and I stockpile it as well, since I get a prescription every month, and rarely use it! LOL
For the first time in my life, it took 3.5 mg to get it under control, and it lasted over 2 hours. Finally, after about 2 hours, I was able to get it under control with the Xanax. For those of you who don’t know about Xanax dosages, 3.5 mg is a shitload of Xanax. Let me put it this way; if I have to get anxiety under control, and meditation doesn’t work, which usually does, I take a quarter mg and that usually suffices.
I passed out from my panic attack after two hours. I have never passed out from a panic attack before.
Yesterday was tough for me. I have never had “after-fect” from a panic attack, but it took me until late last night to get it all together. I spent most of the day sleeping, because I couldn’t stop crying or getting it under control.
For those of you who might be wondering what precipitated my panic attack, at the end of Kyra’s show, (which had nothing to do with my panic attack; I am used to that kind of open debate frequently), I found out a friend of mine was listening in. This was not the type of conversation that I had wanted that friend to hear. I had no idea that it was listening after about twenty minutes when things went bad, because we were cut off, and that person was listening in. Some of the things that went on were not things I wanted that person to hear. There was a great sense of shame during some of the content that came out of my mouth around the third hour of the show, because of the shame. Because of the content, I ended up ending that relationship (probably not forever) because of shame; not because of anything that person said or did.
I will post this for today, but many of you emailed me directly, and for that I am greatly appreciative. It is really nice to know that their are people out there that care enough of me to do that, especially because I have never met you in person. I feel the same way about you guys, and you are wonderful friends.
Again, I am sorry for not getting back to you. I was not on the computer at all yesterday, and just so you know, my “online” status on IM never goes to inactive, which is why some of you may have thought I was online yesterday.
Thank you, my friends, for caring so much about me. And for the person that I felt shame about for the content that you heard, please know it has nothing to do with you; I don’t deal with intense shame very well, especially when it has to do with a close friend.
I wasn’t TOO worried yet but another day and I would have been. We all have bad days, I know them well. I’ve had a couple really bad panic attacks, I know how terrifying they are.
I’m not sure what happened, but DO know that we’ve all said/done things that caused us shame…and true friends understand this and are there for us anyway.
Without going through each comment individually, I wrote on the next post out there how wonderful all my blog friends are.
People took the time to write me, text me, and everything. I am so sorry that I wasn’t around on Monday. I was shaken until last night. Longest panic attack, and then followed by anxiety. That has never happened to me before.
To boot, Mr. X didn’t get on the internet to talk to me last night, which added insult to injury. Although there was no reason for me to think anything personal about him not getting on, I did the typical girl thing and got depressed and thought that there was something wrong with me and that I was being played. I am ‘toopid’ sometimes. You guys are so great to me!
14 responses so far ↓
1 Hilly // Mar 9, 2008 at 11:44 pm
Wave machine/sound machine…get one next time you are out. They do wonders for my panic attacks, seriously. I turn the world off, close the computer and just listen to the noises while doing my breathing exercises and such.
There’s that and xanax…
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2 laughingattheslut // Mar 10, 2008 at 6:44 am
Maybe playing with your dog will help.
Are you okay now?
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3 Robin // Mar 10, 2008 at 6:52 am
I hope you were able to breathe again, I would be very sad.
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4 Mr. Fabulous // Mar 10, 2008 at 8:56 am
You okay?
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5 DutchBitch // Mar 10, 2008 at 10:53 am
Awww Hon! I hope you got thru it (seeing as it is now 11 hours ago)… Hope you are feeling better by now…
Biggest Muah!
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6 Kyra Sutra // Mar 10, 2008 at 11:09 am
Do I need to give you mouth to mouth????
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7 Winter // Mar 10, 2008 at 12:32 pm
As an asthmatic I know how horrid it is when you can’t breathe. Hilly’s right though, Xanax works wonders on panic attacks. My best friend can’t live without it. He stockpiles it in case Red Dawn ever happens.
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8 Preposterous Ponderings // Mar 10, 2008 at 9:00 pm
Been there done that.Still go through it all of the time.
If you need to talk to someone feel free to e-mail me. My addy is on my blog.
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9 Absurdist // Mar 11, 2008 at 4:52 am
I want to thank everyone for their concern. I apologize for not getting back to everyone yesterday.
The panic attack was the longest I have ever had in my life. I have only had three.
as for Xanax, yes, that is what I take, and I stockpile it as well, since I get a prescription every month, and rarely use it! LOL
For the first time in my life, it took 3.5 mg to get it under control, and it lasted over 2 hours. Finally, after about 2 hours, I was able to get it under control with the Xanax. For those of you who don’t know about Xanax dosages, 3.5 mg is a shitload of Xanax. Let me put it this way; if I have to get anxiety under control, and meditation doesn’t work, which usually does, I take a quarter mg and that usually suffices.
I passed out from my panic attack after two hours. I have never passed out from a panic attack before.
Yesterday was tough for me. I have never had “after-fect” from a panic attack, but it took me until late last night to get it all together. I spent most of the day sleeping, because I couldn’t stop crying or getting it under control.
For those of you who might be wondering what precipitated my panic attack, at the end of Kyra’s show, (which had nothing to do with my panic attack; I am used to that kind of open debate frequently), I found out a friend of mine was listening in. This was not the type of conversation that I had wanted that friend to hear. I had no idea that it was listening after about twenty minutes when things went bad, because we were cut off, and that person was listening in. Some of the things that went on were not things I wanted that person to hear. There was a great sense of shame during some of the content that came out of my mouth around the third hour of the show, because of the shame. Because of the content, I ended up ending that relationship (probably not forever) because of shame; not because of anything that person said or did.
I will post this for today, but many of you emailed me directly, and for that I am greatly appreciative. It is really nice to know that their are people out there that care enough of me to do that, especially because I have never met you in person. I feel the same way about you guys, and you are wonderful friends.
Again, I am sorry for not getting back to you. I was not on the computer at all yesterday, and just so you know, my “online” status on IM never goes to inactive, which is why some of you may have thought I was online yesterday.
Thank you, my friends, for caring so much about me. And for the person that I felt shame about for the content that you heard, please know it has nothing to do with you; I don’t deal with intense shame very well, especially when it has to do with a close friend.
10 The Absurdist » Panic Attacks and Shame // Mar 11, 2008 at 5:07 am
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11 DutchBitch // Mar 11, 2008 at 5:07 am
Awww Hon, sounds like you had a rough time! I hope things with your friend will work out. I’m sure they will. Muah!
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12 Robin // Mar 11, 2008 at 5:52 am
I wasn’t TOO worried yet but another day and I would have been. We all have bad days, I know them well. I’ve had a couple really bad panic attacks, I know how terrifying they are.
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13 Tug // Mar 11, 2008 at 10:28 am
I’m not sure what happened, but DO know that we’ve all said/done things that caused us shame…and true friends understand this and are there for us anyway.
I hope you’re OK.
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14 Absurdist // Mar 12, 2008 at 5:26 am
Without going through each comment individually, I wrote on the next post out there how wonderful all my blog friends are.
People took the time to write me, text me, and everything. I am so sorry that I wasn’t around on Monday. I was shaken until last night. Longest panic attack, and then followed by anxiety. That has never happened to me before.
To boot, Mr. X didn’t get on the internet to talk to me last night, which added insult to injury. Although there was no reason for me to think anything personal about him not getting on, I did the typical girl thing and got depressed and thought that there was something wrong with me and that I was being played. I am ‘toopid’ sometimes. You guys are so great to me!
Come on man. You know you want to say something!