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I am only going to be posting Monday through Friday, since weekends are slow, and I could use a break from the work it takes to pull out old blogs and re-post them. OH AND SINCE WHEN DID FUCKING CNN HEADLINE NEWS BECOME CSPAN FOR SPORTS????
BTW, I am kind out of it today, so I don’t get to all your blogs from yesterday or tomorrow, plase forgive me. I miss you aLl very much!
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Been in a mixed episode for 6 weeks. They are the worst to cure. Awesome psych and I made medication changes, but .samples of most of everything. All I haed had to do was out of pocket the Lamictal. Two months after singing up for COBRA, Humana has still not set me up in the information. They anti-mania medication worked, but I ran out of both Lamictal and . I paid $400 out of pocket to get my Lamictal filled at the wrong dosage. Provigil: $300. Cymbalta: $400. Risperdal: Approximately $500. Sanity: priceless.
Except that I couldn’t get the Risperdal filled. Which means flat out OUT no sleep. Which makes mania worse. And menopausal like a bitch who was run hard and hung out wet.
During the time I worked for Ceridian, I learned that they make their money on float. Money floats between Ceridian and it’s clients, and has a predetermined period of time before which the money is dispersed; either to the employee or the company. I know damned well what they are doing while waiting for Humana to pick up my money.( Bastards.)
I called them yesterday, and I talked to a robot. He apparently had more answer than a human being. Go figure.
I asked the robot out for a date, but alas, all he could say was, “I ‘m sorry. I don’t understand what you are saying. Please try again, or press Alt+function+Shift+capital A+1007 to go back to an operator. ”
FUCKING INSURANCE COMPANIES! I am going to Laredo with my scrpts to pick up my next round of medicine sometime mid next-week.
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1 the108 // Feb 13, 2008 at 11:18 am
I’ve been sort of down lately and am wondering if I need to up my dosage of the damn pills. Lemme ask you this: Do your moods feed off the moods of people around you? When My husband is acting funny then I get all out of whack. I can’t handle being confused or worried about what is going on with other people. It fucks me all up.
2 Robin // Feb 13, 2008 at 12:31 pm
I’m sorry for all that crap, it’s just so unnecessary.
Robin’s last blog post..I Meant To, I swear
3 Poppy // Feb 13, 2008 at 12:39 pm
Blech. I’m sorry you have to go through all this. And I’m sorry that I don’t understand. But I try.
4 laughingattheslut // Feb 13, 2008 at 1:10 pm
Frak. I hit the wrong button and have to type this again.
First, are you really going to Laredo? How much money do you expect to save? Is there a more interesting place you could go instead, maybe near Padre Island. Then after you’ve finished your business, you could maybe stop by the island and visit the sea turtles or something. Laredo is a long boring drive to a place that I didn’t care for that much. Maybe it’s more interesting on the other side of the border.
Also, I am new here and missed the part about you losing your job and such. Maybe you could point me towards a few posts on the subject so I could catch up.
On a totally different subject, I’ve been trying to read your blog since about six this morning. I kept getting error message 403, you’re not allowed to read this document, or something like that. I’m not really blocked for saying sex and Walmart in the same sentence, am I? Anyway, I was wondering if anyone else had that problem this morning, or did you turn off the blog to work on it, or is it just some freak thing that only happened to me?
laughingattheslut’s last blog post..My husband is lame
5 Absurdist // Feb 13, 2008 at 1:14 pm
Kyra:
Feeding off each others’ feelings is natural when we haven’t developed both thea bility to express our boundaries healthily, and inside our mind. The medication can only help you with increase in absorption of serotonin, norepinephrine and dopamine. The rest is up to you regarding the ability to cut yourself off form absorbing other’s emotions.
Now, if you are truly feeling additional depression, and you are tired, talk to you doc about cymbalta. I have tried every one out there, including tricyclics and MAOIs, ever thing under the sun except ECT (which is next).
You aren’t taking anything for your mania. It’s understandble. We all like our mania. But any doc that isn’t treating both your depression and your manic tendences isn’t a doc worth his salt. Never go to a farm psych; always see on that actually sees his patients.
Seroquel is nice for sleeping, and does increase decreate the reuptake of seratonin, but you need something like Lamictal (Depakote sucks because of the weight gain, although it is highly effective), and I use cymbalta to handle the anit-depression. When my mania gets too high, I supplement with Risperdal, which helps me sleep, doesn’t make me hungry, and really helps with mania all the day.
If you want more of my walking encyclopedia information, just email me and I will let you know all I know (chelle@michelledear.com).
Robin:
I guess if you believe in some things, may be I was born to be bipolar. Maybe it’s the creative genious I need to write. I try like hell to look at the bright things, but when I am alone all the time, it seeps out.
Poppy; that’s one of the nicest things you have ever said to me. Thank you. But you can still bitch at me if you want.
slut: I would go to matamoros, but it’s much dirtier and nastier than Laredo. Laredo is a working town; Matamoros is a party town. The men there are more dangerous than Laredo. Plus, Laredo is much closer.
I am going to leave today and go stay with my dad. I will be l ooking for volunteers as blog posters for next week (I only blog Monday through Friday). I have Wayne slotted for one day,so I need five more…
Anyone want to play?
6 laughingattheslut // Feb 13, 2008 at 1:25 pm
Well, you’ve already seen what I do on Friday’s, so that’s out.
You can borrow an old one of mine if you see one you like.
laughingattheslut’s last blog post..Sometimes I really wonder what is wrong with his brain
7 Absurdist // Feb 13, 2008 at 2:20 pm
Oh, I forgot to tell you guys. When I get depressed, I tend to take my blog offline, because I never know when I am going to feel better and bring it back up.
It’s stupid thing to do; I guess it’s my way of telling the world that I am not in a good place. Sorry about that.
8 Absurdist // Feb 18, 2008 at 8:09 pm
Does anyone know what kind of crack I was on when I wrote this?
Come on man. You know you want to say something!