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Before I get on with Freewriting Friday, yall please don’t forget to go over to Blog Ninja’s Mystery Topic Challenge writing contest.

Please visit the Mystery Topic Challenge Blog to view all of the other entries. Once you’ve read them all, please be sure to vote HERE in the Sidebar for your favorite.

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Welcome to Freewriting Friday. If you would like to participate, please head on over to Metalmom’s site. She came up with this great idea (actually, I think it might be Shelli’s, but I am not sure. If so, I apologize!) We write for five minutes as free association, or stream of consciousness. For those of you who have trouble finding a timer, I have been using this timer for a long time for many different things. It’s totally web-based, and will count up or down, with a ding at the end. I love it!

Participants so far (there may be more by the time this is posted; check on MM’s site for the complete list):

• Finn
• Metalmom
• Shelli
• Randi
• Shortie
• Stacy
• Trishk
• Epiphany

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I am writing this early. I am trying to do blogs early, because it’s too stressful for me to write them all every night. Yesterday was kinda tough for mein the afternoonl. Wayne got on me about writing. I use his wife as my astrologer. I started doing it just for fun, to see what happened. But it seemed dead on, so I decided to try it for awhile. Couldn’t hurt anything, coudl it? My chart indicated that this year I would do exafcly what I wanted to do; write a book. I have been hem-hawing about doing it, because I feel rather unworthy, but yesterday was tough. WAyne really got on me in a post; in a nice way, and since he is my best friend, it’s tough to hear the truth. It forced me to really deal with why I am not writing and why I am postponing it. It really has to do with self-worth, the fear of not being able to support myself, and my abilities. I mean, who would listen to me? It’s non-fiction, about my experiences in support, customer relationship management, and services. It’s a multi-series book about hwo to change your culture to help your clients get their dreams realized by serving yoru client/customer appropriately, bsased upon my experiences about what doesn’t work. I really do have this expertise, but I guess since, along the way, I have been beaten down for being a marverick and doing what works, I feel unworthy. The biggest problem is that I feel so intimidated and overwhelmed. But what I realized yesterday is that I am biting off too big a chunk. I need to minimize my topic (wrong word here), and slim down my audience. I finally picked three messages that I want to get across, and determined my specific audience. That helped a whole lot. I felt a lot less overhwhelmed, and I think I am going to be able to write now. I was able to break down my topics into subtopics, adn now I think taht all I need to do is start writing instead of keeping doing outlines. I mean, I just gottra do it to start feeling like I can do it. I am doing the blog ninja writing challenge, and I hope that will give me some good feedback to help with my self-esteem about writing books. Even though it’s fiction.

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