It has become clear to me that I am in the small percentage of people not destined to be with anyone. After going to a movie tonight with a guy I go out with, but do not have a relationship with, and, again, after being treated like shit by him, it is clear that I can’t even get the bottom of the barrell.
It’s funny; I don’t think I am atrocious. I must be missing something, however. I am not a complicated person; I don’t lie, I am honest (but tactful), I don’t play games, and I work hard. I make good money, I am a nice person, I am romantic and loving, and I am alone.
You wouldn’t think that a woman who is relatively sane, logical, does not play games, is not ugly, and makes six figures would be alone. And yet, here I am. Among many other women. Just like me. We can’t even get someone 23 years older than us to hold our hand. And that’s really sad.
So, since so many men have not wanted me, or have used me and thrown me away, I have realized that some women will never get to have love. I don’t even want love. I just want someone to hold my hand. That’s all. And I can’t even buy that.
6 responses so far ↓
1 Poppy // Nov 11, 2007 at 10:48 am
That’s FUNNY (not HAHA) because every fucking asshole who finds out I’m getting a divorce keeps hitting all over me. AND I DON’T WANT THAT. Want? You can have. Move to France.
2 Wayne // Nov 11, 2007 at 12:26 pm
Hey, I make six figures too. It’s just that the first figure is “0″.
If you give some of us this creep’s address, we’ll subscribe him to all sorts of interesting stuff just to get back at him. We got your back.
3 chelle // Nov 11, 2007 at 12:38 pm
No, there is something wrong with him. But I guess there is something wrong with me too. I don’t really want a relationship with him or anything; he is way too weird for that. But I miss being touched; just human, male touch. I can’t go two years without it. Who could? there is just something heinously wrong with me that makes men not want to come near me. I am not gay or anything. I can’t stand the thought of being with a woman. I don’t even get along with most women. So I guess I am screwed, so to speak.
4 Miss Britt // Nov 11, 2007 at 6:29 pm
“I just want someone to hold my hand. That’s all. And I can’t even buy that.”
I disagree. You could totally pay me to hold your hand.
(seriously though sweetie, I am sorry you’re feeling like this)
5 Avitable // Nov 11, 2007 at 9:44 pm
I’m sorry that you’re having some self-doubt.
I can see if my wife is okay with polygamy if you’d like.
6 chelle // Nov 12, 2007 at 3:25 am
Mis Britt: If I were a lesbian, I would pay you a lot of money to hold my hand.
Avi: You are so sweet. But your ulterior motive of a three-way ain’t gonna cut it. However, if she ever gets tired of your bullshit, you can come visit.
Seriously, though, thanks for your statements. I am thirty-five (yes, I know you all know that), and am so tired of being out of relationship for four years, wondering why I can’t get a damned date.
Come on man. You know you want to say something!